From aquiantances , to friends to close friends and finally, to what we are today. I love your voice , your thick cute hair , your tickles ,  the very way you look at me in the eye telling that you love me. Well , the list goes on and on and on. You amuse me in the simplest ways or maybe , I am just too caught up or engrossed with you. This whole fourteen months have been helluva great company. We're becoming fifteen in lesser than a week. You probably heard this a thousand and one times , but you are indeed the most wonderful creature I met on this planet. I love you , have always , and always will. We'll prove to everyone we're worth so much more than this. Although it seem like just another ordinary day , waking up to your morning messages and seeing your face just makes it so beautiful. You're the most perfect person on this planet to me , and always will be. Sometimes we fight , and say mean things , but you know you will have my heart forever , as long as you keep it safe with you. I know you had a hard day, but i promise tomorrow will be much better, darling. I'll prove to you we're so much more than this. I love you. Arjun, I'm in love with you.

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Something for your eyes (; 







HAHAHA! i couldnt blink when i watched this video, ahhaha, kinda cool luh, bee, can you dance like him?! :x

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HOLAH PEEPOS! n_n

Anyways, today i went  for training, like finally manz, heeeee! aren't you guys supposed to be happy?! LOL, hahaha! anyways, bee fetched me, he was like, i fetch you, eh now i cant fetch you, eh, i can fetch you already, eh, cannot already, then in the end he fetched me! HEN HAO. ahhaha! Anyways, was supposed to meet bee at the bus stop, but me, usually being the late-comer. :x haha, met him at my traffic light instead! saw peepos playing frisbee at the field toos, it's like always loh. LOL

Anyways, then he borrowed my colour pens, and he drew his name all over my hand, i bathe finish and it's still here! he say i can't clean it off, ZOMFGWTFHBBQ, i gonna wear a plastic glove or something to make sure it's not gonna get washed away is it? LOL. hahah, then we walked to school, and i bought him coke, YES PEEPOS, HIS LAOPO BOUGHT HIM A COKE! then he told me his mum don't let him drink, i was so determined to snatch it away, but who can snatch coke away from bee manz, i told him, what if i was a cat wearing a "fadhilah" suit? or what if all coke in the world turned into pepsi! orrrrrrrr, what if the cats drink all the coke in the world, then he had to shoot me back with f__gs, eeeeeeeeergh! er xin manz, then bid farewell to him, love you dear. (:

Then reach school ground, and i realised that they weren't doing anything, -- coach wasn't even there! ZOMFG, hahah. then played with anqi a while, MY GAY PARTNER! zomfg, how long has it been since i called you that? Anyways, soon after coach arrived, then we did this circle thingy, which was kinda tiring, there were tons of lactic acid in my system and yes, i felt fatigue, urgh, i was like, sooo lazy. -- anyways, soon after, coach told us to do like a hundred spiking to the fence, he said, if can jump, then after cheeting completed, he said, must jump, wtfh of sense is that manz? -- Anyways, thanks cheeting for helping us throw the balll! (: ahh! And i realized i have this cut at my head, no wonder during training it was super super painful, bee told me to put on plaster, i was like, don't want luh, so noob! :x

Left early from training, and went to the bubbletea place there then in the end, it was closed, waa, what a turn off! HAHAHA! anyways, i lost ten bucks. ): ): ): ): ): tml having the bqq! ahah, it's like, woah finally manz, meeting the volleyballers who stay in sembawang at two thirty. sigh! Should i buy the red earpiece? me wants it badly manz, maybe i shall buy it for myself when i pass by northpoint, hehehe. now listening to Hot & Cold by reezuan's wife, LMFAO. ahhah, Anyways, i ate long john silver just now, -- URGH! fattening manz, so, it shall be my only meal for the day kk, no supper today fadhilah! ahha, and the stupid-est thing for the day is that, i am supposed to fetch my aunt from the air port then in the end my mummy got the wrong timing, what a noob. :x HAHAH! And yes H, i miss you terribly. ): Swine, don't jealous kayz, i miss you too! But i miss bee the most. D: Christmas is like in 4 days peepos, aren't you excited? Bee say maybe he spending New Year's with me! WEEEEEEEEEEE. me likey. (:

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Me. Miss. Arjun. Bryan. Kishore.

Feeling super bored right now, how i wish some idiot could prank call me or what, sigh sigh sigh, triple sigh! And shingz, my mum friend is coming later, and she's real irritating, like seriously irritating. -- URGH. anyways, im kind of missing training right now, kinda only. Cors i found this photos in my old memory card again! HAHAH, i look so noob. --

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He came and died for us

Anyways, today i went to Y-hope, it was really really good! i love it so much. n_n like serious, i dont know what made my parents mind change into letting me go out today, but hey! me like. LOL. learnt kinda a lot today thou, and the drama was damn nice, "Who Killed Christmas?" the acting was rather nice, really nice, to know who actually killed christmas, click here! hahaha, before that, it was even more awesome, there was performance of thriller by Michael Jackson, thumbs up manz! n_n Snoopy and I was like, cheering, LOL, he claims he can't do the " woo!" sound. :/  I bet bee would have loved it if he'd come along. :x But he was having a match, all the way till boon lay. -- which, in the end canceled due to the rainfall, kinda wasted, if not i could have met bee. ):

Anyways, met like quite a lot of people, snoopy and I kinda failed at tricking people telling them that my name is Yong En, that's a girl's name right! eh snoopy, don't deny lah! LOL. ahaha, after that, went to citylink, where i ate at long john silver, ate this chicken cajun thingy, sounded like kaijun. -- no offense intended. shared sprite with yong en, and he bought he cheeeeeeeeeese, he claims that after buying the cheese for me, he doesn't owe me any hotcakes, LOL, well, anything luh, was just kidding bout the hotcakes part manz. :x HAHAH.

Then we walked around, waaaaa, saw sesame street, but not elmo they all, saw this lady, i pity her, it's like not worth it to act stupid, what if you do it too often that it turns out permanent O.O, damn dumb luh, its like, 1, 2, 3, 4, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10, oh yah! i have forgotten about the number 5, children! give yourselves a pat on the back, blah blah blah. -- then went back to long johns to meet the rest and walked towards Cineleisure, LOL, hahah, i was like, i am sooooooooo not walking with you guys, i am civilised. HAHAH, damn hilarious manz. And i swear famous amos was calling out to me! LOL, ahhaha, the smell was sooo awesome, they bought tickets, talked about taylor lautner and miley cyrus etc etc etc, walked around cineleisure too, sad case manz, they have frolicks now but they no longer have Mrs Fields, urgh, how i miss their brownie and cookies. ): ): ): ): ): ); )'; Anywyas, after that, snoopy sent me to the mrt and took train, he of cors, went to watch he movie with them, hahah, they bought like 20 tickets! it'd be 21 if i followed them. LOL, downright ridiculous. ahah!


After that, went northpoint to buy markers and took bus home, popular is so lousy, like urgh type of lousy! D:< Have to go check somewhere else then, sianism, anyways, at night, bee was like damn damn damn cute manz, he called me, then he put down, then i called back saying, you trying to prank call me at night? LOL. hahah, i love you sweetheart and no worries, i am here. bao bao! (:

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Hmmmmmm. Today was just another uber boring day, like seriously. Didn't leave my house at all. ): And mel left singapore already ): she'll only be back on second january, waaaaaaa, such a long way to go! D: sigh sigh sigh, and, today bee had match, jiayou darling! I'm sooooooooooo bored today, like, to the max yos. And its like, exactly two more weeks till new year! OMFGWTFHBBQ. i really hope this year i won't be overseas, sigh sigh sigh, i remember last year, i was in malaysia, i was talking to nixon and let. LOL, anyways, i really hope i can spend NEW YEARS with bee or H. (: speaking of which, H is now at sentosa, staying at the resort, urgh, envy envy envy! but her ( cool ) dad told her to invite me there! HAHAH. Maybe one day, maybe some day. heeee.

Anyways, snooopy asked me to go Y-Hope tml, and i reallly reallllyyyyyyyyy wanna go manz. ): he says that there'll be a special christmas performance, and i really wannna goooooooo! T-T i can't miss it out manz. sianism, i shall find a way to sneak out of the house if they don't let me go then! D:<


found this photo in my super old memory card, it's like really really long time ago, like june 28, 2008 long. HAHAH, i've been so sick of my hair lately, bee keep saying its cmi, thanks. i feel like cutting it short, Yay or Nay? :/ leave a tag kays, love you.

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ALRIGHT, FADHILAH'S BACK PEEPOS.

Heee, kay lah, i apologise for not updating kays, later nuffnang kick my butt then you know, LOL, kidding.
Anyways, remember bout my thursday! WELLLLLL.....

It's one of the greatest day ever, like really. (:

Hee, lets start it out, went to meet bee and swan at khatib mrt at like 0730, and then i realised i took the same train as swan, LOL moment, then when we went down the platform, we were like, where's arjun, where's arjun? :/ then he like was behind us ( again. ). i find it kinda creepy thou. :/

And it was raining, and i actually got caught in the rain earlier on. -- but then i bought an umbrella, which was purple, i mean, it still is! it's like super gay to the max manz, like really reallyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy. :/ then bee, was like, 0730 in the morning i was searching the whole house for an umbrella for you then in the end you bought one. -- oh sigh, cors you said you dont wanna bring one ): urgh, epic fail. then we were like kinda lost, well, i ain't familiar with khatib yet kay! wait till i move there one day. :x heeee. then i pity swan manz, cors me and bee share one umbrella then he kinda walked in the rain, but of cors we walked under shelters if we spotted any n_n

After that, we waited for mel to come down, then we sat down, bee was like, we better make it in time for training, i don't wanna do hundred burpees (?) Anyways, when mel came down, her eyes were like big, i mean, bigger than normal. -- she was like, ohmygod. fila i hate you manz, HAHAH, see, i so sweet she say she hate me. ): LOL. hahah, bid farewell to the guys, gave my gay umbrella to swan, LOL, purple is too hideous to be seen with me! :x then me and mel went to macs khatib and had our breakfast, heee. she bought sausage macmuffin plus milo which was cheaper compared to my egg macmuffin, and i didn't but the meal k, waa. humpfh, i got scammed. --

After eating, which seemed kinda loooooooooooooong, we went back to school, bee was having his training upstairs, so i couldnt wave or say hi to him. ): then went to the general office, hahah! and yes people, i looked into the year book again :x can't stop myself, hahahaha, then saw mr chia and mr koh, mr chia asked me if i was free the other days, he told me to come back to help him with this desk work, wooooah! After that, we were like calculating some things, and woah, its like close to eight hundred manz, hahah.

Then, i sent her home, LOL. hahah, after that, went to northpoint, then saw swan, OMFGWTFHBBQ. stalk me! :x hahah, then i went home a while, then off to go to junction eight, ate at the manhattan fish market, which was super nice, i even forced myself to finish up the meal, it was like this spaghetti, along with mushroom soup and coke, yes darling,  i drank lotsa coke! :x be jealous :B After that, headed to somerset, went to 313, and i'm like OMFGWTFHBBQ, forever 21 is like 3 levels, waaa, kimak manz. -- then, went to NUM, uniqlo and cotton on, i don't seem to understand whats so nice bout uniqlo. :/ it was like crowded, i guess.

Walked around, then went to FarEast where i got a dressssss, hehehehhe, it's kinda of a good deal thou, its like 27 bucks and you get a belt too! a lovely, really lovely piece. (: I was seriously hesitating to get it! i was like, noooooo, red earpiece is way better, LOL. *hints.  HAHAHAHAHA! anyways, then went home, it was an awesome day, i felt awesomeness today, and at night, bee was sooooooooo sweeet. (: i love him loads.

It's kinda of a pity i only remember to
take a photo of this after eating a lot of it. --

seee, i wasn't scamming ya'll when i said there was a brand named NIXON. LOL

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 HELLO PEEEPOS!
 
I'm back home now, heee. from where? LOL. Well, woke up kinda early, cors ytd fell asleep in my bed all of a sudden, sorry people for not replying! D: i woke up with like eight messages, LOL, but none from bee ): ): ): then texted bee, sigh. then suddenly planned to go to causeway to return my book and buy my books, yes people, i havent gotten by school books till today :x heee. Anyways, then bee say he wanna pei me, awww. haah! then he say after pei-ing me, he go meet swan, hahah! he also got dance class tonight ,busy busy ah darling? LOL. :x planned to meet bee at eleven thirty, and guess what! bee fetched me! n_n me likey, likey. LOL.

Then he was early, and according to my handphone, i reached there at eleven twenty seven kk! then he nagged at me D: sigh! Anyways, after that, we like walk damn slow sial, and bee today reassured me twice! i like this feeling, feeling, like he is there for me, awww, bao bao. ohyah, i didn't go for training today :x whooops. chee ting also never go due to her fever, get well sooon! ermm, then went to macs, which explains for the receipt above. bee says that i never upsized anything  before, which is true. -- LOL. hahah, i can't even finish my macspicy meal, what more an upsized one? anyways, i saw like the tables surrounding us, the people at the burgers damn weird, like eat the bread first, then the chicken then the bread, what weirdos. -- bee, i'm so sorry for not ordering your burger without lettuce. D: LOL, anyways, guess what! when i took only two bites, bee ate half of the burger only, urgh. And, i only ate my burger, drank like what, one eighth of my upsized coke and ate two fries, my money got scammed! cors i only wanted to upsize one meal, but they upsized mine too, oh sigh, then after that, went to the library to return my library books, which i did not read :x

HA! then went to causeway to get my books! luckily yesterday reserve it already, if not have to make my way to bra-basah.(?) -- damn far manz, oh well, bought myself a red pen too! can you believe it! i love red yet i did not have a red pen till now. ayeh, hahah, i remember i gave my red pen to wendy han, hahah, wendy the han! LOL, after that, walked around causeway, met weiwei too, hahha, i have to be there to discipline them -- LOL. bought myself a nice top from cotton on, size s, and its kinda big. urgh. :/ i can't find my highwaist skirt! like shingz manz, gonna buy next time i go shop, heee.

Then after that, took mrt home, saw darren and kai jun, aww, so sweet. last long! n_n hahah, then bee actually wanetd to pei me till my bus comes, then weiwei went to top up his card and we ended up taking mrt, sigh, then i showed bee my house, i mean which floor etc lah, ahaha! then when reach sembawang, it rained like maddd! ): saw this ahmad ibrahim guy, i remember tsz ping still tell me that his friend is from an indian family and can't speak english and how stupid of me to believe, HAHHA! anyways, luckily i got an umbrella, ella, ella, HEEEE. so, i was kinda soaked, NOT! H, the good news kay! n_n damn damn damn funnny! its like,



fadhilah: H, you know whats the bad news?

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MY AVATAR ROCKS MORE THAN YOURS!



What a fun day! LOL, a lot of funny things happened before it even stroked 1200. LOL, anyways, woke up kinda early. OHYAH! kak syamee is sleeping overnight at my house, sianism, later she take away my fan -- anywayssss, after that, met bee, i was early today! :x i reached earlier than bee, i was at yishun mrt, i'm thinking like, hmmmm, if bee say he just left his house, imma buy myself  bubbletea :x but i'm like ohshit, cannot, must lose weight! :C

After that, walk with bee, hee, we kinda walked too fast :x LOL, anyways, i owned him, 25 - 5! HEEE. then, we were too early, LOL, so he changed his shoe slowly, anyways, there was something in his hair, and i swear it took us like a real long time to take it out! i'm so sorry for plucking your hair. ): i hope you dont cut your hair or do anything to it, cors i find it really nice! n_n after that, saw swan, LOL, hahah! and as usual, he bought milo, he loves milo i think, H also, hahah, tell her drink her fave drink from toilet, the brown brown colour water :x

Anyways, after bidding him goodbye, i called H, and i happily woke her up! PLAN SUCCESS! hahaha, after that, i walked real slowly to northpoint, had mac breakfast with her, we bought..... HAPPY MEAL! but she was late, so i told her that she owe me a milo, but in the end i paid it by myself, see, i nice kay, and yes vanilla, people so self praise at times, HAHAH. at at mac, we were like sooooooooo crazy. like seriously, hahha, and H actually got freaked out cors of an insect, which was harmless, then i think it went to the other table, the woman keep on flickering herself, me and her husband were like, tsk tsk, HAHHA. damn funny sial. we also played with our happy meal toys ,which is the avatar, got light kay! blue colour some more, WOOO!



After that, we walked round the whole northpoint, looking for a toilet. -- damn dumb, in the end, we never go, we wanna go to waste my hand cors my hand accidentally kena the jam mah, -- ohwell, and got this baby spa place, waaa, kimak, i wanna be a baby now. ): ohwell.. sigh! after that, walked her to her block, and her ( cool ) dad damn cute loh. HAHAH, H, you so bad, never clean  the car, got your oillllllllll. LOL, then took bus back, i was so tired that i fell asleep and actually missed like 2 stops, omg manz, then another funny scenario, was, while walking to northpoint to meet H, got this china lady talk to me, idk what she wanna sell to me, then i said, dont want, then she keep on talking chinese to me, as if i understand. --

Anyways, i missss bee! i wonder what he getting me for christmas * wonders for one whole minute. Well whatever it is, i bet i'm gonna love it, heeeeee, i hope he likes what i'm getting him thou :/ Hmmm, and my blog now have songs again, THREE CHEERS PEEEPOS. anyways, i miss bee, he just went offline. )))))))))))):


PS. DONT ASK ME WHERE I GOT THAT PICT CORS I FORGOT. ))))))))):

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WAAA. SHUAIGE SIAL.
JIAO LIAN, WO MEN AI NI ~ ~ ~ ~


HAHHAA, OMFGWTFBBQ, I AM LAUGHING MY ARSE OFF NOW.


KK, CLOSE UP.



OMFG. COACH HAIR DAMN NICE, ME LIKEEEEYYY ~ ~ ~





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Anyways, had a somewhat tiring day today, went to training, heee. i slept real real late last night, like 0430. heee :x was on the phone mah, i was seriously hyper :x and did i mention, i played with my liquid eyeliner cors i was tooo freaking bored, i don't know what bee was doing, but i got sooo bored -- ohwell! HEEE! ( inserts grin ). LOL. back to my day,

coach wasn't at training mah ,so, the guys trained us, and i have to thank them thou, cors if not, we'd be fooling around :x hahah! anyways, we didn't run outside, did some of mr lim ( our previous, previous coach ) warm up, heee! after that, peiyi got sick O: then she didn't tell zj mah, then he didn't know, so he just told us to continue, sigh. and cors of this, i almost saw a dragon fire emerging from zj! WOAH. chill yo. anyways, then phua came and say we cant train without a coach/teacher around, but we didn't care. ahahha! today, i was better, like weeeeeeee. finally got my concentration back already, WEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Then went to general office with mel for a while, and saw the school panaroma year 2006. I TELL YOU AH. WE MUST BE GLAD THAT SOME PEOPLE AINT UGLY AS BEFORE :x HAHAHAHAH! sean and zj damn cute sial, pau pau also! like small small xiao didi! :x LOL, hahha. after that, i accidentally throw ball then hit coach, then coach say he want throw it at me ohkay, then i said, ohkay, come ah, throw ah. then in the end he never, its  either he no balls or he loves me, HAHAH. must be he love me right! LOL, then left early, went to northpoint to pass thing, then i saw swan. saw mr tan tooo, i saw mr tan then i turn behind, saw swan, OMFGWTFHBBQ, so many stalker! O:

HAHAH! then went back to bubbletea, met mel and other C girls. they were real fascinated by this ping pong game thingy, scam their money :x heee, bought my bandung blended ice, bee say its not nice, humpfh! anywyas, this thurs meeting mel, having breakfast with her. n_n WHICH MEANS PANCAKES!! she's gonna go thailand soon, awww, gonna miss her so much. ): speaking of which! i miss bee tooo. )))))))))): webcamming with him, heee! well, gotta go now, tml meeting bee before his training & maybe meeting H. i love them both, but i love bee more! n_n

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a proper update next time, i promise!



















"I'll always want you," I warned him. "Forever." - twilight

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as long as youre going to be a part of my future, im looking forward to it.

Urgh, staying home all day, i wonder how imma survive. i miss bee.

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i still miss bee, he's taking a nap, and sadly, my text woke him up, so i told him to just go back to sleep, was bored ,so googled me, and bee's name, and i found this. tell me he's cute, cors i know he is. (: sweet dreams, darling.



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I am bored to the shingz manz, and i think nixon is kinda mean! O: LOL. anyways, bored bored bored ,anybody got any blogshops to share? urgh, do leave a tag. boredom kills, i know.

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It was the most comforting feeling, having you next to me, hearing your heart beating. In that moment, everything was close to perfection. In that moment, I’ve never felt so safe. My mind was at ease and I wouldn’t have traded it for anything else. I knew I had you right where I wanted you.But i guess everything changed and it was way too late to think about happy endings. In life, there are times that you do things without having a choice. And no matter how many times you wish you could have somewhat undone it, you will only end up drowning in regret. You treat people nice, not to be treated nice in return, but only to see him/her smiling happily, isn't that enough? You can say, you wanna be alone, but all you needed was someone to talk to, someone's to listen, someone's shoulder to cry on. Yet when you have them, you still just push him/her away. Maybe what i said that day was true, loss, is the simplest way to teach someone the true meaning of cherish.

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Is he yours? NO. HE'S MINE! n_n

HEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. LOL, alright, woke up today, rolled in bed for a while, then bathe, used comp a while, then went out to meet bee and swan! LOL, , must prioritize, i'm real happy i saw bee today, but what's even happier is that i hugged him, yeah ~ those tender feeling, awww ~ Anyways, after leaving my house, saw hamtaro's brother, he stared at me. -- his girlfriend look so decent, NOT. macam minah siak. heee, went to yishun mrt to meet them, i wanted bubbletea, OMFGWTFBBQ, i like have cravings for bubbletea everyday, omg, i gotta stop manz.met swan first, then we were like, where arjun? where's arjun? hahah, turns out bee was behind us --

Afterwards, we trained to bugis, got one damn funny part, like seriously, hahah! At bugis there, walked around, i didn't visit the BHG's third level! so many sections manz, hee, went into bugis street after that, bee was looking for his black berms, i wonder, how many designs of berms can a guy get. LOL! hahah, after that, trained back, it was rather fun with swan. LOL, they both kept on poking each other. -- i was like, how old are you guys manz?! LOL, hahah! swan was emo-ing on the way home, i guessed he misses ******* a lot. :x after that, bee sent me home, love you darling, and i understand what you told me, it makes sense, ohwell, i'm pretty free nowadays, imma look for ya, who knows next time you'll be hungry, i'd buy you your ayam penyet or macspicy. O.O even so, i love you.

When i reached home, it was me and my dad, i'm like ALERT MODE ALERT MODE. LOL, haaha, anyways, i miss bee, he's playing his sax now. i know, romantic right? if only he play for me :x note to self: save money. i wanna give bee the best present ever! n_n and i left my geek spects in swan's bag. --

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